June 6, 2023

Oh God!

Sweet Thing and I just had a long conversation in which he told me, “I think in order for me to stay in your life, I’m going to have to give you things that I just don’t think I am prepared to give.”

Uhhh… what?

Did I miss something, a beat, my heart beat, my hearing?

So this means what? Exactly? No more forthcoming information that can throw a light on this situation.

I am heart broken. I had been preparing myself for the worst and as far as I can see, I don’t know how else to interpret that.

It’s fucked up…. I got a promotion today. They gave me the big project! ┬áIt doesn’t mean more money, but it’s an opportunity to ‘prove myself’. At the very least, it’ll be a while before I get bored again.

I want to write all this down, but all I really want to do is cry, kick and scream?

Fucking WHAT?!!!

How can I be at this point again? How can I be here again? Why does this feel so familiar to me?

sungoddess

dayo's mama, writer, web developer, orisha devotee, omo yemoja, dos aguas, apple addict, obsessive reader, sci-fi fan, blog pig, trini-bajan, book slut, second life entrepreneur, combermerian, baby mama, second life, music, music, music!

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sungoddess

dayo's mama, writer, web developer, orisha devotee, omo yemoja, dos aguas, apple addict, obsessive reader, sci-fi fan, blog pig, trini-bajan, book slut, second life entrepreneur, combermerian, baby mama, second life, music, music, music!

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